This morning I woke up crying hysterically of course. It felt so weird waking up without calling my Dad or knowing that I wont be seeing him to greet him, "Happy birthday, Da!" I realized how much I missed him even more. Then I get a text from my Ate that Iyah and my kuya will be coming with to visit my Dad at the Chapel. She's on her way to pick me up now. immediately, I felt so much better. I'm looking forward to hanging out with my family today and tonight to celebrate remembering my Dad. I remember last year during this time when we all celebrated his birthday. We had all of his favorite food, Japanese and some Filipino food. He cried when we sung him the happy birthday song. Oh gosh. When he passed away I found this printed out paper, designed of course because my Dad was always so artistic. He didn't even mention that he typed it up. I just found it in one of his folders like he wanted someone to find it and thank god I did. His message really helps me to "Move Forward"...
"Focus, control your emotions and stay calm. Involve yourself in recreational and social activities. Avoid persons and people who think and care only of their own selfish gains and ambitions. Beware of hypocrites who never admit their own mistakes. Think of your own life and future. Work for the best but be contented with what you may have as you go through life. (This is what he always preached to me-- I have become the person I am because of these words) Do not expect from others but do what you could for them if they would ever need help. Move forward to the future and never let regret, pain or sorrow put you down. A brighter light will shine upon you. Always have patience. Most of all, trust in God. Accept heartfully what he has given you. There will be more trials and sacrifices. Walk with Jesus and you will never be alone. Move forward" -Junn M
I don't even know when he wrote this or if he purposely left it behind for his kids. My Dad was always a realist and saw many things in people. I am so much like him. I miss him so much. Da, Happy birthday. I feel you in my heart all the time and miss you everyday. Today, i remember you the most, I love you.
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